Stephen E. Smith

I knew Steve for about six years both at work and play. He was quite a character.
Steve was the kind of person you count yourself lucky to know. And I wish I knew him better, but we did
share some fun times with each other in the few years that we were friends. He would drop by my place
from time to time and hang out with his bird or some of his other friends and we would swap stories
and have a laugh together. Steve was always up to something and he was always quick to see the funny side
of things. In fact, what I remember most about him was his distinctive laughter.
If Steve had lived to a much older age, he would have appeared to be the absolute
personification of a pirate sea captain with his missing finger, old sea-salt looks and his bird
on his shoulder. But that would be in looks only because Steve was a kind, thoughtful, generous
and compassionate human being under that rough exterior. He lived his life to the fullest, never
wasting a single day. I think everyone who knew him would agree that he played full out in
everything that he was up to.
Steve's mother told me about his childhood when he began to play basketball. Steve
wasn't a tall guy, so that may have been a little surprising, but when his mother went to his
basketball game, she saw the whole school cheer and yell when the coach put Steve into the game. Steve had
something that made people love him, and it was present throughout his life.
He often told me stories about when he worked on concert tours with famous bands and
his exploits in so many things, but particularly he would light up when he talked about sailing
his small Prindle catamaran out of Marina del Rey with his parrot on his shoulder. He invited me
to go with him someday. I wish now I had taken him up on his offer while I still had the chance.
I once asked him what he liked about sailing. He said that the spray of the water from the bow
looks like millions of flying diamonds and jewels in the sunlight, and Funky Chicken, his parrot,
would sit on his shoulder, lean into the wind and act like he was flying. He loved his bird as
if it were a child - Funky was his child, his best friend and as Steve would say "The best birdster
on the planet."
I asked him once to make a tape of his bird's mating cries for one of my album tracks, so we set
everything up in his apartment - two microphones, a DAT recorder, the whole works. And Funky wouldn't
make a squeak. So I left all the gear there overnight and Steve waited until Funky had forgotten
about me and then recorded several minutes of him interacting with his bird over the next few days.
I compiled a small collection of parts of the tape he made so that
you can listen to him as he was, playing with his beloved bird.
I wish I had more audio of him speaking, but the little that I have is enough to bring him back for us
for a little while at least. I know he would get a kick out of all of you listening to him coaxing Funky
to have sex with Funky's little plastic toy lover. I bet he would be laughing heartily and slapping his knees
with delight. His mother will tell you he was a mischievous boy, but never mean, and he kept that aspect of
his personality throughout his life.
I thought of something that I wrote in a song that goes, "All that I am is a dream in
your head/a faint image of life without breath" and that's pretty much how I feel about Steve. He was
alive in my reality dream all the way up until someone told me he had passed away. Now I've had to modify
my reality dream to include the fact that he's gone.
I wish no one had told me and I could keep on believing he was still here. I could
have made up excuses as to why he wasn't home and his email wasn't being answered. I could
have pictured him living somewhere, anywhere else.
Now I know he's not here any more. I saw his ashes being poured into the Pacific Ocean
that he loved, but I can still imagine him here with me. With us. I can still picture him cackling his salty
laugh with "the birdster" on his shoulder. I can still imagine him on his boat, wind and surf all
around him with Funky "flying" on his shoulder. I can see him eagerly enthusing about the latest
software crack he had "acquired", or the latest Southpark episode he thought was so funny, or
griping about smudges on his computer monitor.
And I can hear him in the audio file, just the same as always. Perhaps in that way he's still
with us. Steve still laughs in my reality dream when I think of him. He's laughing now.
Mister Hepburn
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